Honestly, sometimes it can just be so hard to put your trust in God. I mean, sincerely, you want to…you want to be free of your stress, worry, anxiety and heavy burdens, but you find yourself in the end putting all that weight on your own shoulders. And, boy, can it be overwhelming…almost sickening. No wonder, God never meant for us to take that load upon ourselves.
Today when my oldest son, Noah, who is 2 1/2 years old woke up, I was seriously TIRED. My youngest, Isaiah, who is six months old has been waking up at least 3 times a night. Combine that with a toddler who wakes up at like 6:30 am feeling rested from a FULL nights sleep, you got one tired (and sometimes cranky) mommy on your hands. Well, anyways, we go down stairs for our morning routine…breakfast, Dora The Explorer, etc., and I had a realization. I thought “Wow, Noah always assumes I am going to give him his breakfast. He doesn’t even worry what it will be.” Gosh, what trust. Later, when we were playing make believe Dora The Explorer & Diego (his favorite show right now) I had another realization. I thought, “Wow, Noah doesn’t even worry about his day. He doesn’t have any pressing plan. All he wants do do is play with me & hang out.” Gosh, how simple…and so incredibly beautiful. Even in the small things, like when Noah is on the 4th stair from the ground and gets a big grin on his face as I hold my hands out…he jumps…and I catch him.
I so want to have the childlike faith that God calls us to. I want to wake up and just know that he is there, and will always be there. I want to live my day knowing that he will provide and do all the things that he says he will. I want to spend my day in His presense spending time with Him…I want to jump and know that he will catch me.
Lord, give me the strength to trust you. Free me from the burdens that I have put on my shoulders. You are God and no situation, no nothing, is bigger than you. Jesus, I will choose to trust you.